Oof. 
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This is a heavy one.
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The format of this piece mirrors a psychiatrist’s notes (the restrictive cadence of symptoms, diagnosis, prescription, side-effect gives credence to that). Possibly a psychiatrist’s notes on Eva, since it seems to detail her experience in vivid technicolour.
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But it is entirely possible that Eva has...changed certain bits of it. (This, after all, comes from Eva’s perspective entirely.)

An example would be Eva’s diagnosis of pathological grief. We would like to point out that the diagnosis is contra-indicative of her symptoms, as a protracted grief response does not encompass her more energetic responses amongst others. It is not a correct diagnosis.

The wild west of the internet allows us too much access to all the possible symptoms of every single mental health disorder ever recorded -- and without any sort of professional training and study, it is far too easy to cherry pick symptoms and attach it to oneself.
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A self-diagnosis has a case study of n=1, where 1 indicates a single case study example. (An experienced therapist, by nature, would necessarily have seen, observed, and studied many, many more). One might become fixated with or attached to one’s false self-diagnosis -- or worse, try to self-medicate. It is extraordinarily dangerous to do so.
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Eva here is angry and frustrated. Her journey has hit a flip-table moment, where she downs 100 aspirin in a fit of rage. It is also grim to realize that Eva possibly received organ-damage via aspirin poisoning in the process.
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(A point here, perhaps, to keep stashes of medicine away from individuals who are unwell, especially minors.)

She is tired, uncomfortable, and frustrated at the dizzying twists and turns of her recovery process. We understand that.