Welcome to a stream-of-consciousness-esque poetry piece by Eva. This is one of the few videos whose silences speak louder than her words.
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We see a scattering of negative emotions here -- which, while reflecting her negative state of mind, seems to also be a means by which she is processing her emotion. It appears like a form of narrative therapy - a form of psychotherapy where one journals down and their negative emotions as a form of expression.
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For many, narrative therapy can prove to be a cathartic, though frustrating experience. This is because narrative therapy follows a J-curve effect: it will get worse before it gets better. The body get worse before it gets better. The body and mind would need to process all the negative emotions first.

Eva ends this video with a resigned roll of her eyes, annoyance evident in the thud of her last two words: still ill. Eva is expressing that despite her arduous journey thus far - she is frustrated that she is still unwell, still feeling terrible, still having bad days. That she is not better, yet.
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Ah, Eva.

We understand Eva’s frustration entirely --hers and many other individuals who feel stuck, unhappy with the one-step-forward-two-steps-back progression of their recovery.
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The truth is this: therapy is not a linear progression. There will be dips in between, points where it will feel like one is stuck, stuck, stuck, mired in the quicksand of spiralling negative emotions that prompts thoughts such as what is the point of this?
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Take another breath.

It gets worse before it gets better. The therapeutic process sometimes could include processing old traumatic memories or reframing or relearning unhealthy coping mechanisms -- these are difficult, but necessary tasks. There will be dips -- just as there will be breakthroughs in the process.